Finding My Way Back to Love 2 by Diamond Johnson

Author:Diamond Johnson [Johnson, Diamond]
Language: eng
Format: epub

10

Duke Strong

“Come on, baby. We going to look at it together,” I said, grabbing Paris’ hand and trying to pull her along with me to the bathroom.

No one knew this but my wife and I because it was a hard pill to swallow, and it was something tough to talk about, but when it came to getting Paris pregnant, that shit was so hard to do. In the past seven years, my wife had three miscarriages, barely making it past twelve weeks pregnant. Now, I couldn’t even get her pregnant, and we’ve had to buy almost one hundred dollars worth of pregnancy tests a month, only for them bitches to be negative.

Our son was now nine years old, about to be ten in another month, and both of us were just ready for another baby. Nobody knew how Paris would cry herself to sleep and feel less than because her body wasn’t strong enough to carry a baby. Every miscarriage she had, and every time her and I would see that one line appear on that pregnancy stick, it was like she would slip into a deeper depression. I hated seeing my wife like that because she was honestly one of the strongest women that I knew, so I hated that this had the capability of making her so weak.

“It’s negative again,” she cried, burying her head in my chest.

Hearing the way Paris started crying over the test being negative, I swear it was enough to turn the coldest nigga warm. Her cries were so powerful to the point that a tear slipped from my eye. I quickly wiped it away because I had to be strong for my wife. Lifting her up, I carried her into our bedroom and pulled the covers back on her side of the bed then I laid her down. Getting down on my knees, I wiped her face as I kissed her all over.

“Paris, we going to get it right. I promise we will,” I told her, and lowkey, I felt bad for even making that promise to her because honestly, I didn’t know if we were going to get it right.

“But when, Duke? I’m tired of doing this to myself. Why did this have to be us? What did we do to deserve this?” she cried.

I got in the bed with Paris and let her lay her head on my chest.

“Paris, we didn’t do shit. Honestly, I don’t know why this is happening to us, but baby girl, you can’t fold now. We have options. What do you think about adoption? Or getting a surrogate?” I asked her.

Honestly, I wasn’t with either, but hell, I was desperate. I come home from a long day of work, and I make love to my wife damn near every night. Sometimes, even going for two or three rounds, and I know for a fact that my soldiers are working. Whatever it is, it’s just not getting her pregnant.

“I don’t want to do either or. I want to carry my own baby, Duke,” she said, shaking her head.

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